An illusion

Black

The calm sunsets at the beach

with handover the shoulder of

the one who would walk shoulder

to shoulder in all storms and pleasant day.

The breeze makes her hair fly high and she smiles

for a moment could not understand what was

more beautiful her smile or the sunset.

Time the culprit signals that it is time to reach home.

We depart with a sadness that the moment is gone

yet happiness hides behind subtly cause tomorrow

is a new day and we meet once again.

As her home closes by, the heart beats go berserk

not wanting to letting her go.

But the darkness of the skies pushes her inside .

As the moon shines n the chilly wind blazes all out

The heart starts to sobs to hear her sweet voice.

There comes technology to rescue in form of phone.

Talks of the unseen future builds the foundation

for the discussion.

As she says shares how scared she is off

the society, family and the world.

A strange sense of fearlessness

awakens inside him saying will fight it

She gives a laughs and says

he can’t  his family cause she will hit him

if he tries to fight them.

He says he would do anything to make her happy.

She asks the perfect wish, says its way too late

go home eat n sleep.

But she does not know he is hungry for her presence.

Somehow the night ends….

they both slept off saying those three magical words.

They had this all along some good days, some bad days.

Some days they would fight the world for each other. N few days they would fight each other for the world.

Both had d best of times. Her innocence put hiM into a state of self questioning saying was it all true or a dream was he worthy of her.

She would laugh seeing his bedazzled mind.

Then when a drop of tear would roll down his cheek.

She would stop n say it’s all real n how she would leave the entire world for him…

She was like the angel in his demonic life.

She was the moonlight his darklife wanted.

She was the wizard who tamed the dragon.

She was true to him n so was he…

They had everything sorted out.

She was the dam which could hold

back all that the world would hold against him.

She was like this watchful teacher.

She knew it all, she knew how attached he was

she was all that mattered to him,  he would

Lose track of time when she was around.

If she asked he would bring anyone to their knees.

So powerful was his queen, that he would run into

any battle without a second thought…

As age passed when it was all bout have it’s happy little ending,.

There came a hunter,  called reality smashing

those little dreams crushing those promises.

And squandered barely breathing trying to see her ,there was reality laughing , laughing the laughter of death.

She had the sword that cut him…

And she said..it was all an illusion!!!!.

His cry was unheard his anger went out of control.

He wanted to destroy everything that breathed.

Cause it was not promises that where broken along with heart.

It was trust on humanity they went off.

The hands which ones wiped the tears cause tears of pain.

The smile which once soothed his raging heart, today created waves of depression.

Her voice could he heard in his dreams.

She was there yet he could not do anything.

Falling to his knee,  begging for mercy,

Pleading not to betray all were a vain.

Cause as she said, it was all an illusion…

Love died,  heart survived an attack,

Life struggled through, all that was left

were the happy moments of the illusion

Which walks n leaps in the corners of his heart n soul, taunting how he had been fooled into believing he can he happy…

After all it was the best illusion he ever envisioned….yet it was an illusion a black day of life…

Cheers to life

Airboy89

PS – WANTED TO WRITE MORE BUT JUST COULDNT EXPRESS MORE CAUSE OF LOSS OF WORDS… BUT REALITY IS THAT “AN ILLUSION” IS A REALITY !

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Is it sadness…

As a human we all feel emotions , for may be that is what makes us human. Happiness , sadness, anxiety, curiosity ,love, hate,anger etc etc… all these exists in us all.

For today lets us talk of sadness, for it has intrigued me for a while seeing people be sad seeing it in myself as well. Its a emotion with hidden powers that we sometimes fail to realize. It is a catalyst to success cause you see sadness can he harnessed into dedication and commitment for sadness comes from pain from loss from betrayal from failure basically from what means a lot an individual also sometimes from surroundings happenings cause of various external factors.

But is it sadness or is it just the mind being disappointed….. ??

Question I am finding no answer to, could you help me out here… do let me know in the comments

A mother and the world

She carried us for 9 months in her tummy

protecting us from the all the badness of the world

till we could see and hear.

Then finally one day she lets us come out to the world

bearing the pain shedding blood sweat and tears

only so that we can see the world.

She is The Mother, a being who lives

strives for her kids.

Then as we grow up we drift away in the name

of growing up,

yet to that iron lady we still are kids

whom she still feels need her protection

we fight sometimes to drift away

still that heart beats for us.

She still worries if her kid ate well, slept well

She calls a thousand times to ask how

we are, we ignore in the name of being busy in meeting,

making a life, but are we truly making a life.

What is the point of life when  money cannot buy that

warmth of love of a mother.

What is the point of living thousands of miles away

if you cannot make your mother happy.

Is it worth it ! in a materialistic world

we say it is the core essence.

But where have we reached with this

we lose what is dear to us in the name of

“making a living”.

Because for a mother, her children are the world.

 

Expectation for no expectation

Expect

What to expect when you have let go of expectations

but subtly deep down have an hope that the

unexpected to happen.

After all it were the expectations which broke

making these words ,these rantings,these abrupt

out pour of grief, anger pain.

Cause we all have an expectation to not have an expectation

but the heart, the courteous heart,

it just cant keep up.

After all not having an expectation itself is an expectation !!

Somewhere we all want to be

that lonely fearless warrior with nothing

to lose…..

We all have it , few have it loads few have it in

the tinest level…..

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

The little dream

As the weekend inches by, sitting beside the window seat at work seeing the cars rush towards their destination to avoid the weekend rush. A sudden thought strikes like a lightening and brings back an old memory, once a dream and still remains the same.

 

She strikes again, her voice echoes inside the head silently like a feeble haunting voice, give a sudden jerk and a ache to the heart, as i try to snap out of it she already made contact with my heart and could feel the ache slowing raising and the eyes getting ready to get moist.

But unable to shed that tear the fist just goes to get in contact with a wall with a force, people around think that some one client or manager must have spoilt my evening.

What do they know no amount of work pressure can break me for it is the same work pressure which keeps me occupied from thinking of my lost angel.

Days, months and years have passed without her but not a day gone by without she passing my mind.

Why is it that the heart longs for the one who broke it in the first place. Why does the the heart not apply the logic which the mind is good at when it comes to all the other things and people in the world. Why  is that common sense takes a hind seat when it is about her. Is it stupidity or is it insanity or is it weakness, call what you may, but it exists just as there exists the sun the moon.

Some people over come it some people hide it. Everytime the promises i made reminds me how much i loved her and how much more i would give. But now all of it is just a dream cause all that love that affection is stacked up within rotting inside waiting for a miracle every dream which comes of her gives the chills beyond comprehension.

She is now like the dodo bird in life she existed once but now extinct or may be evolved and not in my life and in a different universe. But this heart its not ready to forget you and gives the shocker no matter awake or asleep.

She was a dream then and even now she remains but what happened inbetween the mind tries to figure out if it was a illusion or was it real, but in vain cause it usually ends with a mental breakdown and a anger towards oneself, for the reason for her departure away from me is unknown and till date the hunt is on to find one solid reason to finally let it go or may be thats also a little dream…..

Just remembered you again as always and you grow stronger  inside everyday… where ever you are with whom ever you are just know that you are still remembered by me everyday …. stupid

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

Short post 15

Redemption and suffering both is within us. It’s just upon the heart to let the mind chose

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The truth sets you free, when the one who needs the truth accepts the truth

otherwise it shall only be a taunting little memory etched in the head.

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There is no shame in accepting that one is flawed,

shame is when you know you are flawed and yet hide it behind

words and illusion.

 

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only you can live your life not anyone else

so why stress about what others think for

you shall and will be your own guardian

 

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Beyond the boundaries of societies beyond the realm of limitations

lies humanity sober, clean and guarded by conscience which is

pure as the smile of infant.

 

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Amidst the darkness lies a calmness, a solitude , a calling

which only the broken can see and bear

for not all heroes are born to save the world wearing cape

some are heroes save the world just by taming the devil

inside of them, in the darkness

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When u spot the smile in the ally of memories

when you see the tears in the corners of the mind palace

just remember that both happiness and sadness are illusions

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One does not a god for saving, what one needs is confidence upon oneself

for victory favors the brave, and the brave have trust upon themselves

and not any invisible entity

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Everyday can be a battle when you come back from a war,

for war exposes you to certain treacherous phases

that it can create havoc in the mind and can errupt

anytime, not all wars are fought between countries

few war are fought between reality and illusion

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