“It will heal just give it time” – everyone who knew me said that, somewhere deep down inside me even though i knew it was a lie i was happy that somehow i shall be back up on my feet figuratively speaking. Its been a long time now and i realised i was right all along.
Now that’s the dilemma should i rejoice for i was right or be sad that the wounds of past are still hurting me. Well neither, I think its time to accept. Accept the fact that nothing really heals; we only get accustomed to the change.
Healing is just a white lie to soothe the raging mind and heart. But when we think at a logically level is it not a lie. There is no absolute in this matter. Healing is a process giving to slowly adjusting with facts. It’s not like it’s gone; it will be there within us only thing is we will be strong enough to hide it.
When i thought i would be healed of my scars from the past, i was really happy until the point i realised it wont if the person stands right front of me all would fall back. I do not want to be healed or tortured i would want it to be channelled into something productive. giving an edge towards attaining success or happiness. Let every sleepless night be turned into brain storming sessions as to how to plan and execute the steps towards attaining growth. Let every insult lead to a motivation to prove them wrong. Let every cheating bastards be a lesson to differentiate people next time. Let all the anger fuel up the bulldozer towards success.
It’s a twisted thought for some; but think out of the box; let your pain be your motivation.
I personally know its hard but am trying; cause failure is not when we fail; it’s when we lay low instead of getting back up. It’s ok to fall but it’s not ok to get back up take your time but make sure to get back up and make sure you are back on battle mode.
PAin is good; it gives you time to think and what is right and wrong. But yes do not let pain make you do things which are immoral and illegal. CAuse we already have government and religion for that..hahaha.
So next time someone says it will all heal tell them to keep it for themselves. Cause nothing heals we only get adjusted.
Cheers to life