Death, be gentle


Death, one thing very one is scared off and ultimately attain it whether they like it or not. But when it hits it leaves a trail of memories behind in few peoples life, death makes few people happy and a few sad. Based on their perception bout it. A very ill person in hospital expects death  to put an end to his agony will his loved ones expect a miracle and want him to recover.

I for one have always been amazed by death, i mean we all know its the finally gate which we all have to pass no matter how rich or poor, strong or weak one is, for it does not discriminate.  It is a salvation for few and a unwanted truth for few.

What amazes me is how it affects a few, all this i saw first hand when i lost my grandpa. Seeing my grandma who always was the most positive person in life turned into a bundle of negative thinker. And she still regrets the death of grandpa saying he left her alone in the big house all alone. I remember the silly fights they used to do and grandpa used to shout and grandma used to be quiet talking to me n i used to laugh and my grandma used to join me.. but since he left us i never seen her smile or laugh.

So is death, why cant you be gentle when you take away someone.

The other amazing thing bout it, the materialistic things which we leave behind. We struggle fight and accumulate things and finally when death calls we just leave it all behind either to be misused or to be wasted. So why fight over small things and accumulate something we cant take with us.

Death should be actually celebrated than be despised or be sad about; i mean come on its like the final test where all that we did in a lifetime is being judged and remembered, the moment of truth where we come to know what we really meant to people we may not be able to know it physical or in anyway cause i mean come on once we are dead, WE ARE DEAD. But our legacy  the we treated people the way we helped remains. Which as per me is the biggest asset and that have more value.

Life is a simple journey with difficult choices.

Death is the final stage of the journey where we get to say good bye….

Death should be celebrated for its the beginning of new things for people left behind associated with the dead, we can take it in a positive note as well as a negative again depending on one’s perception.

For me death is mixture of happiness and sadness, few truly miss the dead while a few are happy that a person is dead.

Death leaves behind a trail of sorrow and tears for those who truly cared and thats when we should say “death, be gentle..!!”

In memory of a very few closed ones who said their final goodbyes and let me in confusion and mixture of emotions.. both physically and mentally dead.


Cheers to life




Mom, the existing god

Her love is unlimited

no matter how afar we drift away.

She is more powerful than the whole military power

combined when it comes to save her offspring’s.

She lies that she hates me when i do mischief.

She says she is full and not hungry

looking at the limited food in kitchen

just so that her family eats and sleeps well.

She says she is fine and continues doing work

even when she has no strength to stand.

She loves unconditionally

she stands by dad no matter the situation.

She is life she is the oasis of love and care

Mom, the god who i believe exists

She lives with pain if it means her child can be happy

She will lie, for her child to be happy.

She can bring the apocalypse if she comes to know her child

is in trouble.

She is a mother with a heart of gold

She is a angel who will never leave our hand.

She is the pillow of comfort we can rely on

when everyone in the world cannot sooth you.

She is the god we all can rely on when hope in life is lost

She will cry along with you when the whole world laughs at you.

She will bear any pain to see her child happy.

She will spend nothing on her and spend

everything on her child to see the child happy

She can sense and feel the pain which no one else sees in you

She is a savior till the end of times.

She will still love her child

even if the child ignores her.

She is the real god who exists

towards whom no one can turn into a atheist.

She is the heaven when life seems a hell

She is a woman she is a wife she is a sister she is all what we imagine

a good loving god to be

She is a mom….


Let it burn

I saw the bridges being burnt,

i tried to put out the fire

for you have crossed it and i was in between

i was not being selfish.

I just remembered the promise

I made to my mom

that i would one day make her proud

So i did not want to burn along with the bridge.

But you saw me trying to put out the fire

and just laughed at my agony

I used to trust you with my life

yet you proved me wrong as rest of the world.

You cracked me in the beginning and mastered me

You buttered me to be soft hearten later you

stabbed the same knife you used to butter me

Oh girl am not angry at you for what you did

I am just sad that you let the world change you

We used to have these deep conversations

and you always used to say we will over come these

But in the end you let it burn…….



I wanna quit

It’s been a while since I saw you

but you always gaze through the meadows of my mind.

And i stare at you from afar in my dream knowing that

no one can take you away from me there.

I try to sleep as much as possible so that i can see you

in my dreams, for you are still in my mind

You laugh like before you jump as like before

and sometimes if am lucky you still say

I love You like before.

Why o why do u still taunt me gal

am i so sinned that i am being laughed at even in dreams

You left me i do not blame you

i blame me for you are the perfect one and

i am the unfit one

Oh come on baby I and you both know

what i was and what i am now

You were the weed to my bong

you were the milk to my coffee

Every smile you smiled is etched in my head like a tattoo

every promise you made to me is keeping me alive

for i believe one day you will come back to fulfill those

oh i may be wrong for but what if i am right

oh dear i know no fancy words to sweep you off your feet

I have no shiny armor; for the one i have is damaged in the battle

I have no money which i once had for its all gone trying to be near you

All i have is my love for you, my loyalty and my promise

But yes at times i do feel like i wanna quit

but then i remember the good times i had with you and the promise

that i would never stop fighting to get you back no matter how tired i get

Life is putting me to the ultimate test

but baby you and your memories is the only thing pushing me

to fight back

Oh darling we saw the good and bad days of our life together

now that your good days are better off you left me

that’s ok for you deserve every happiness in the world

but what hurts me is you could have told me all that you needed was a

shoulder to lean on in the beginning itself and i would have not

been attached to you

Sometimes i ask don you have a heart then i realize

i must have changed it

I do not know my crime but i am paying the time

I wanna quit not cause you don deserve the fight

but its only cause i wanna quit…..




A death note #fiction #1

Before I begin just would like to tell that this is just a post nothing serious i repeat just a hoax.

Dear people

I could have finished this off in one single statement by saying “Fuck off dear all” but that would not be a decent way to fuck off from that face of the earth.

So, listen i tried to live life with all the positive attitude possible, i tried to pull my self together every single time but people always let me down after getting back up. It was not too late until i realized that the world is a  messed up place and until i have shit load of money i cannot change anything and mainly people are a bunch of hypocritical’s who need a punch in the face by reality and truth whether they like it or not.

I worked my ass off for save money and I did a pretty decent job too and all it took was one fucking stupid decision that i lost all of it and fell in debt well that’s just great 4 years of saving lost in just few month trying to keep up a promise.

And oh when you guys cremate me  i just want you guys to be just normal no ritual and stuff cause I don believe in god and religion so you can save some money on the ritual stuff. And as for friends well i want you guys to treat your self with a round of scotch whisky on the rocks likely go for RedLabel since it was my favourite and non you sick bastards are gonna use my name and post crap in FB or make it an excuse to pick up girls.. Cause i know you dirty bastards..hahaha

And as for my parents well Mom and Dad am sorry for having put you go thru this shit but trust me I was in a worse state so am actually doing you a big favour cause if i was alive i would have probably turned into some vigilante you know like batman spiderman and those kinda shit. I know am being stupidly hilarious but come on its better to go away making someone laugh than leave them in tears right.

And dad you were right i should have done my engineering sorry ye old man; i was just being me. And mom relax any more you don have top worry and stay awake waiting for me to reach home or worry bout finding a girl for me anymore..hehehe i kinda stopped the 3rd world war don ya think…:P And mom i know that you knew that i drink and smoke thanks for being subtle about it. Well i know you would be really upset but ah all i can say is am sorry for making you go thru this but hey think on the brighter side one problem solved huh i mean no need to worry about me anymore.

And grandma i know you are gonna be super pissed at me right ow but what can i say i had enough of the shit. You remember what you used to say when i was small bout ghosts and stuff well just think that am going on a hunt to catch them all..:p Come on laugh for me wont ya..

my dear brother well, you outgrown your self my friend am am proud of you even though i never publicly told it or expressed it i mean come on dude you exceeded all expectation our parents had high hopes on me and i performed somewhat above bad but you my friend have done it. BE the same n remember money makes the world go round.

ANd the most important of all to all those sick SOB’s and B’s i know you are having your laughs now well that’s my gift to you sick people. So which is kinda of a win win for me .. I am the best in whatever that is i do so suck it…Ah i wanted to have my revenge on all of you i remember every bad things you did and the pain that you made me go thru, thats ok thanks for giving me adrenaline rush so cheers to you..

Last but not the least; i have lived my life i have seen enough and enjoyed as per my dosage and i have no regrets in that matter so there is nothing left to live for. Thank you for the betrayals the back stabs and the insults it made me stronger and made me kick you in the face more and more.

And this is for that special one- I kept my promise till the end girl, i wish the best for you and nothing but the finest of everything in life.

Cheers to life one last time


Signing out and expect my loved ones rest all of you; I will be back i will haunt you…:P


Please note this is just an funny exercise to put out the anger please do not take this seriously and if you do thank you very much for your care and concern; but am not dying till i achieve what i have in mind.












Talk to me ….

“Lets talk”  …

The kind of conversation i would like to have any time no matter the outcome. Having a talk can give so much insight into a persona of a person. When i say talk i mean some real deep conversation.

Come on anyone can have small talk and yes it is kinda kinda cute too; but everyone has their own taste. So what actually is deep talks means well its sounds kinda boring but to be honest its better to be with someone who knows reality than with a fairy tale.

So what is the deep conversation mean well to be frank its not one of those conversation the regular crowd would prefer so that is what makes it so valuable you see anyone can talk bout how good the new phones are or how cute the cat and dog videos are. But what amazes me is someone who can look at the bigger picture and talk bout the universe the ever expanding knowledge clouds. Talk bout life talk bout what is morally right and wrong talk bout the problems and how we as an individual can help solve it .

Enough of all the crap bout fairy tale love stories give life some juice let it rip let knowledge expand above and beyond your limit let knowledge free you from the fake reality let it open your eyes to the harsh reality.

We can talk for hours and hours together and trust me i will not judge you and label you stupid for the learning curve always expands exponentially so let us exchange knowledge lets try to take as much as knowledge as possible and expand our mind. For we know every little and there is a lot to know. For the world is an university and every individual is both a teacher and a student we just have to open our mind to it all.

Open up the mind lets and see how less we all know; a year back I thought i knew it all then something opened my eyes when I flew out of my home country i realized that what i know is peanuts and what is to be known is an ocean.

We all have a sense of profoundness within us but it is only worth it with a touch of humbleness only..

The world is university free of cost admitted by birth so learn as much as possible for everyone can teach us something eventually. We just have to make up our mind to learn.



Show me your flaws….

“We are flawed creatures, all of us. Some of us think that means we should fix our flaws. But get rid of my flaws and there would be no one left.”
― Sarah Vowell, Take the Cannoli

Having a flaw is not a weakness but its a part of every person for that is what makes everyone unique. There are the perfectionist who look for perfection then there are the real perfectionist who look for the perfect flaws.

We all look for perfection for we are obsessed with it so much that we forget that itself is a flaw.

Try something different like look for the right flawed person whose flaws make you go crazy. We all are twisted in a way. So when you ask someone to tell bout themselves tell them to explain their flaws and not their perfections. DO not ask how many trophies a person has won ask them how many times they have got back up on their feet when they lost. For in the end the when life puts us down knight in a shiny armor wont have any experience in fighting the battle for that is the reason his armor is still shining for it has not seen any battle, the armor which has taken the beatings can surely help you fight by your side.

Funny is it not that such a compliment can have such a deep meaning whilst people think knight in shiny armor is great but in reality it is not. So when you find someone with a flaw just remember that wars are fought by soldiers while ordered by the king. So on the long run a soldier is your savior not the king.

Shining armor is fancy at a show off n not at a battle field.


Cheers to life..


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