The fault in our past

Sink or Swim


Somewhere i heard that life is a roller coaster, somewhere i read that life is a circus, met many people and everyone had there own metaphors about life. but one common staunch inference was life goes on; it goes on it will walk by death, it will fly over sadness,it will swim by problems.

I will not give an example right now for every situation is different and everyone’s perception is different so let me talk in general as of now.

Problems come,few we get by it with help of friends or alone, then there are some which no matter what, leaves a scar and becomes a part of our life. Few of the problems change us for ever and make us something we are not; we either get enlightened or get the mirage of enlightenment either ways we become different.

When ever problem hits a person there can be mainly 2 outcomes, either it breaks you or it makes you. But then there is a 3rd type which is subtle and are actually related to first 2 and that is first it breaks you and then arises a new you which the breaking made you become.

One shall start hating everything and everyone; nothing shall matter, anger shall be be filled in heart and literally the person will be a walking pressure cooker ready to burst out anytime..hahaha

But few find peace in those moments they start accepting everything equally, happiness sadness both mean same to them, with or without people it does not matter. Problems no matter big or small shall pass that is true what no tells is how it changes people. How problem can alter a person completely. You see problems does go away but the pain remains at times. And people actually think they can feel you , but honestly everyone sensitivity level is different.

Pain is good it helps one know one self yes it is good in away but also sometimes we all need to take risk and try if we find someone worth to be with, yes the past had taught a lesson not to trust yes the past had hurt yes the past had drove us to insanity. Yes the past was scary that it scares the day light of us when we feel happy. yes we do get scared which is subtly covered up in name of being emotionless, heartless XYZ reason. But deep down inside its just plain sacredness to see the light again.  But what we fail to see is what if this is an exception what if this happiness may stay for long, lets be honest life wont be happy all the times so its better to chose someone with whom its worth to spend your happiness as well as sadness. Cause  not all can be same we just have to adjust.

Now time for the example life sucked few times few times drove me crazy few times pushed to just end it all, then i realized i need to face all this fear i need to reinvent myself and as a result few of my earlier stance were contradicted when i taught bout it well i realized that i was actually contradicting the contradiction so in a way i was actually becoming my old self, What’s the risk involved one may ponder, well same as getting up early in the morning ..;) Sometimes we just have to risk it all give it all we got, For there is no guts and glory without a good fight. Life is a battle you either win or you learn fighting along. There is no defeat.

Everyone is broken everyone is hurt everyone has problem everyone has there own demons sometimes when another demon comes to say hello we do get scared but why not take a risk if in case you know the demons of other person. YE everyone gets scared and yes everyone gets bit paranoid when something good which once tuned bad is repeated in the initial stage but why think this also may turn into bad one. Take a risk use the lessons from the last battle and utilize for the best.

To put in simple words, life put me down just like all yes i did have to battle it out in many ways the outcome was also simple i become a different person, my level trust on others reduced my personal space became huge, my brain got more calculating when dealing with other people for i was scared to get hurt again yes scared. But it made me stronger, smarter, realistic and most of all gave me freedom from the bonds of things. However have something in mind about to take a hugeeee risk, do not know how it will go nor do i wanna over think on it. All i wanna say is just breathe………….Its okay to be scared  😉 sometimes we just have to look beyond the horizon.

download (1)

Small poem to end the post:-

I have seen the dark side

yes i know the depth n pain of it;

Yes i have battled the demons myself

truth be told your demons are calling my inner angels.

I am for a small fish in the huge ocean

but this fish knows how to swim with as well as against the current

PAst is something everyone has

on;y difference few of us do not care bout it

at a certain point in life

for someone shall come and give you a reason to smile all again

n for those moments when they come

we will know for it creats a havoc in the mid and heart

its a cocktail of happiness,hope,scaredness,anxiety

and most of all end of a story.

It will be biggest battle one will have to fight

to actually feel the goodness

may it be pinching one self or may be even

running away and thinkin about it

All in all sometimes

magic does exist, change also is good just sometimes…..:)

Sometimes you will find people

for whom its worth being contradictory.

For they made you change everything

bout you in life;

Luck hope destiny love god alone

here are my contradiction..;)

images (2)


Cheers to life



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s