Inside the head runs a river
of thoughts and feelings for you
which is blocked by a dam
called “your happiness”
There is a reservoir of memories
of the days we spent together
the purpose of life seems
all lost, not for the world does not make sense
no longer but for,
You were the ocean and i lost my self
in the depths of your innocence and love
now am just a lonely fish,
Hiding in the depths of the ocean
waiting to be found
Death does not scare, but the thought
of leaving behind trauma for the
ones who still care
Every night is a futile
storm of wanting to be with you
and trying to forget.
It is in these moments
that even a deadly drink
seems like a possible solution
it is these times that
anger, pain, tears combined
with alcohol makes a deadly combo.
Who am I?, is a question
i ask myself
for i do not know, i only feel the chill.
The coldness of the outside does not affect.
But the regrets inside haunts and burns down
the once peaceful mind.
There seems no hope,
trying to change is just as painful as physical pain
Cause there is no peace inside.
There is just the vast and shallow ocean
as i swim alone waiting
for you to come find me…
or may be just discover the vastness in the state of loudness
of a ever running river if thoughts……
Cheers to life