Expectation for no expectation

Expect

What to expect when you have let go of expectations

but subtly deep down have an hope that the

unexpected to happen.

After all it were the expectations which broke

making these words ,these rantings,these abrupt

out pour of grief, anger pain.

Cause we all have an expectation to not have an expectation

but the heart, the courteous heart,

it just cant keep up.

After all not having an expectation itself is an expectation !!

Somewhere we all want to be

that lonely fearless warrior with nothing

to lose…..

We all have it , few have it loads few have it in

the tinest level…..

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

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The little dream

As the weekend inches by, sitting beside the window seat at work seeing the cars rush towards their destination to avoid the weekend rush. A sudden thought strikes like a lightening and brings back an old memory, once a dream and still remains the same.

 

She strikes again, her voice echoes inside the head silently like a feeble haunting voice, give a sudden jerk and a ache to the heart, as i try to snap out of it she already made contact with my heart and could feel the ache slowing raising and the eyes getting ready to get moist.

But unable to shed that tear the fist just goes to get in contact with a wall with a force, people around think that some one client or manager must have spoilt my evening.

What do they know no amount of work pressure can break me for it is the same work pressure which keeps me occupied from thinking of my lost angel.

Days, months and years have passed without her but not a day gone by without she passing my mind.

Why is it that the heart longs for the one who broke it in the first place. Why does the the heart not apply the logic which the mind is good at when it comes to all the other things and people in the world. Why  is that common sense takes a hind seat when it is about her. Is it stupidity or is it insanity or is it weakness, call what you may, but it exists just as there exists the sun the moon.

Some people over come it some people hide it. Everytime the promises i made reminds me how much i loved her and how much more i would give. But now all of it is just a dream cause all that love that affection is stacked up within rotting inside waiting for a miracle every dream which comes of her gives the chills beyond comprehension.

She is now like the dodo bird in life she existed once but now extinct or may be evolved and not in my life and in a different universe. But this heart its not ready to forget you and gives the shocker no matter awake or asleep.

She was a dream then and even now she remains but what happened inbetween the mind tries to figure out if it was a illusion or was it real, but in vain cause it usually ends with a mental breakdown and a anger towards oneself, for the reason for her departure away from me is unknown and till date the hunt is on to find one solid reason to finally let it go or may be thats also a little dream…..

Just remembered you again as always and you grow stronger  inside everyday… where ever you are with whom ever you are just know that you are still remembered by me everyday …. stupid

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

Short post 15

Redemption and suffering both is within us. It’s just upon the heart to let the mind chose

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The truth sets you free, when the one who needs the truth accepts the truth

otherwise it shall only be a taunting little memory etched in the head.

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There is no shame in accepting that one is flawed,

shame is when you know you are flawed and yet hide it behind

words and illusion.

 

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only you can live your life not anyone else

so why stress about what others think for

you shall and will be your own guardian

 

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Beyond the boundaries of societies beyond the realm of limitations

lies humanity sober, clean and guarded by conscience which is

pure as the smile of infant.

 

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Amidst the darkness lies a calmness, a solitude , a calling

which only the broken can see and bear

for not all heroes are born to save the world wearing cape

some are heroes save the world just by taming the devil

inside of them, in the darkness

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When u spot the smile in the ally of memories

when you see the tears in the corners of the mind palace

just remember that both happiness and sadness are illusions

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One does not a god for saving, what one needs is confidence upon oneself

for victory favors the brave, and the brave have trust upon themselves

and not any invisible entity

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Everyday can be a battle when you come back from a war,

for war exposes you to certain treacherous phases

that it can create havoc in the mind and can errupt

anytime, not all wars are fought between countries

few war are fought between reality and illusion

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Adapt

“Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change – Stephen Hawking” – key words being intelligence , adapt and change.

Evolution has always been the game changer in all aspects of the world may it be in terms of human evolution  or even a simple evolution of the way a simple cold beverage is available these days.

The only thing constant is change in all walks of life and whether a being accepts it or not change does impact him/her.

All one can do is adapt to the change the more the resistance worse is the effects, so what makes change so unpleasant to the few, is it the need of having to step out of the comfort zone, is it the sacredness of what could be. But irrespective of the opposition change does its work.

The old saying “If you cannot beat them, join them” most of us have dealt with it and have worked around it. recently found a new purview to the saying which goes by “If you cant beat them join them and then learn to beat them” well, ain’t it simple why resist the change instead join the change , have a first hand experience of the same and if it is not working find a way to have a better change.

Adapting to change is always tough that’s a given but one thing we all as individuals have to realize that if we resist the change it is bound to destroy us eventually. Cause change is the only thing constant in life for it is a virtue which takes life forward irrespective of the speed. Accept the change be the change and if one is not happy with the change, then change the change.

we may have our doubts our anxiety our sacredness but it is all an assumption our mind may think of the negatives and the bad sides why not rewire to think on the positive as well we would be actually doing our-self a favor .

End of the day it is our decisions and choices which makes us or breaks us.

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89