It shall all pass…

Sometimes I wish could freeze
time, so I could relive

the moment you lied to me

that you love me.

for the moment is still etched

in my heart and mind

replaying at the depths of my soul in the dark nights

and the brightest day, in the busiest instant of time

to the time I am free as a hawk in the sky.

Wishing and trying to figure out

what made you go rogue on our love

and kill it in the most gruesomest

way possible, damaging me to an extent

that even my best friend could repair,

nor could the hundreds of God could

give redemption from.

In the corners of the road, amongst the thousands

my eyes still searches for you in the real

world as well as the virtual world.

Hoping and dreaming just for a glance

of your beautiful smile

which once brought me to my knees.

Every day I decide to let go, but letting go itself lets go

of my decision.

You were always the damsel who made

me put on my best battle suit to fight on.

And till today I do fight, before it was to win you

now to let you go.

Your love was all that kept me humble and kind

and till date it sure does.

For whenever there is a happy moment it makes

Me doubt the instance .

You were the flower that bloomed

In my desert heart.

Unknowingly things went haywire

Paradise was just burnt to the ground

And u danced amidst the ashes.

The artistic approach to literature

Turned into a monologue of trying

To forget and forgive you.

For you see; words merely try to speak

Out my heart n soul.

You were the chaos I was once

Happy to be with now

All am left with is just the chaos

Which you left me with.

How do I tell that

You still cross my mind

That i still to long to hold your

Hands n walk through rest of

Our life.

You are there yet not there

So is the void that runs in my life

Without you.

May be one day you will come back

Or may be i shall forget you forever.

Either of which am unsure.

But maybe one day……..

It shall all pass.
Cheers to life

Airboy89
 

 

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Staring into the Abyss

There was a part of life

where everything seemed

as a happy fairy tale

there was a pinch of sadness,

anger, love, care and everything

nice.

But along the way

the story got a twist,

the whole world

turned upside down

the once presumed miracle

turned out to be a curse.

The smile from the heart

turned into a masquerade

of happiness.

The cry for all of it to end

was in vain

for life had its own plan

not for the betterment

but for the torment.

Memories were not cherished

rather served as a needle

to poke the wound.

Positivism of life

suddenly turned into

an never ending black hole.

The paper also couldn’t

absorb the  enormous

load of pain.

Loads of paper, bottles of ink,

glasses of alcohol, river of tears

nothing could take away

what was snatched away

from life…

All that was left

was just stare into the

abyss awaiting for all of it

to end scared to jump

worried to stand

just stare into the abyss……

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

Its just you !!!

As the rain of pain, once flooded the field of happiness,

the crop of peace was devastated.

And the farmer couldn’t think of harvesting the crop again,

thus came along another farmer who had been thru similar.

And as the winds of change slowly wooed

the first farmer to plant

seeds of happiness again in his barren heart.

It was she who made him accept the change

for he listened without a rebuttal.

For it was not the crop he cared for, but it was the hope

the energy she brought out of him

which persuaded him

to believe he is still alive n still capable of love.

Little did she know

how greatly she had made an impact on the farmer

n slowly d crop of happiness started growing..

For she was the farmer as well as the rain.

A rain which was needed. Unlike the first rain….

 

Cheers to life

Airboy89

Miss me once….

Broken life with all the negativity

is what I behold with a masking tape

called smile trying to hold it together.

Anger, rage is my defense against

everything nice that tries to get

close to me…

You make me lower my guard

and here i am open to everything

I hated ,for once i was gutted by it.

I know u r drenched in your

own little rain.

But let me be the umbrella

that you deep down need.

I know you are in a storm

I wanna be there with you by your side.

I know for you are strong

but let me be there just for once

for let me be the exception….

For you matter to me

You sooth the monsters in me

you make me keep my ego aside

baby you are my Harley

to the joker in me

Darling I miss you

yet i can drag about it in

poems for when i talk to you

it scares me to tell even to say

I miss u, so darling miss me once…….maybe

 

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Cheers to life

Airboy89

The princess who slayed the demon

There was darkness hiding within him

there was no heart but a fireball.

There was no mercy just rage n rage.

As he took off on the journey to

destroy that which and who destroyed every inch of

happiness and peace in him

he did not stop and in the journey

day by day he killed the kindness inside of him

his generosity died a painful death.

Until the day she came and called him

selfish.

That word lit up a memory lamp

of thousand  flame.

For the first time after a long time

it hit him,it hit him hard and deep.

and the heart which he believed was dead

slowly started beating.

For such was the impact of her voice.

he had not seen her just her voice

and it made him slowly calm down.

For once the monster

who terrorized was terrorized.

his anger his rage was nothing infront of her.

And there he stood in dilemma of whether

to fall for the love which made him a moster

or accept the same love which calmed the monster

he had become

cheers to life

Airboy89

 

Silence in your eyes…

Squandering away the one life

that we got ,we both know

it maketh no sense ,for the lost time

shall never be back.

No amount of guilt shall wash away the pain.

No amount of tears shall bring back the same.

The universe plotted against us separately

but made us land up on the same path

of darkness eventually.

You are the Harley to the joker inside of me.

You are the yin to my yan.

Oh darling there are no words

in my vocabulary which can describe how I

feel for you.

you make the joker, a joke.

Oh honey how shall I tell you

the pain will surely subside

all you got to be, is to be patient.

When you say you sad, a piece of me

cringes beyond repair saying why is life so cruel.

I can give you a thousand positive words.

yet it will not heal you, till you realize

we all are broken little by little.

And amidst the brazenness

we all find a sort of shelter

which we all hinder to take in the shelter.

Don’t be scared of the monster who

gives his hand. He is there for a reason

beyond your reasonable mind.

Give it a try for he may not be

a knight in shiny armour.

But he knows your valor.

You may have given up as he had once did.

But baby at times its okay to take a risk

once again for you never know

it may be the final time you have to

take a risk ever again……

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

 

A small wish

Let me miss you

without hating you

let me love you

without getting addicted to you,

let me live

without dying for you.

oh darling, let us not get off

this fairy tale we weaved together

let us not accept the reality

let us build our self a parallel

universe. A universe where everything is possible

where our egos fall in love with each other

where our anger builds bridges of understanding

where our pain our anger makes us more powerful

from within and makes us happier

Baby let us not wake up from this sleep if it

ever was to be a dream…..