Sometimes I wish could freeze
time, so I could relive
the moment you lied to me
that you love me.
for the moment is still etched
in my heart and mind
replaying at the depths of my soul in the dark nights
and the brightest day, in the busiest instant of time
to the time I am free as a hawk in the sky.
Wishing and trying to figure out
what made you go rogue on our love
and kill it in the most gruesomest
way possible, damaging me to an extent
that even my best friend could repair,
nor could the hundreds of God could
give redemption from.
In the corners of the road, amongst the thousands
my eyes still searches for you in the real
world as well as the virtual world.
Hoping and dreaming just for a glance
of your beautiful smile
which once brought me to my knees.
Every day I decide to let go, but letting go itself lets go
of my decision.
You were always the damsel who made
me put on my best battle suit to fight on.
And till today I do fight, before it was to win you
now to let you go.
Your love was all that kept me humble and kind
and till date it sure does.
For whenever there is a happy moment it makes
Me doubt the instance .
You were the flower that bloomed
In my desert heart.
Unknowingly things went haywire
Paradise was just burnt to the ground
And u danced amidst the ashes.
The artistic approach to literature
Turned into a monologue of trying
To forget and forgive you.
For you see; words merely try to speak
Out my heart n soul.
You were the chaos I was once
Happy to be with now
All am left with is just the chaos
Which you left me with.
How do I tell that
You still cross my mind
That i still to long to hold your
Hands n walk through rest of
You are there yet not there
So is the void that runs in my life
May be one day you will come back
Or may be i shall forget you forever.
Either of which am unsure.
But maybe one day……..
It shall all pass.
Cheers to life