Dancing with darkness

As the stage was set with

a million light and one spot light

the heart started its walk towards

the locked doors of the past and knocks;

the mind begs for mercy not to

open the door, the soul laughs at both.

In the end the heart won and the door opens

the walk turns into a ballad between

reality and dreams.

The eyes sprinkles water on the occasion,

the souls gives a shout out so

loud that all go deaf expect oneself..

Darkness looks so pretty amidst all this

chaos.

There is just rage warming the cold heart.

There is guilt, there is pain

there is countless prayers to the unseen.

And then comes out the devil

calling out for a dance.

As the soul lends out the hand,

both dance in the darkness

shouldering one and another.

There was no harm from darkness

as society warned, the perception

towards darkness changed the day

light gave up on him

and darkness was the only ally who stood by.

alcohol is the drink which can

partly drench his thirst and sooth .

Her smile though was more intoxicating than alcohol itself,

so strong that even years after she left

it was still etched in his heart and soul till date.

Every tear that is shed out

is in remembrance of the time spent together

it is the only thing left in life for she was no longer there.

trying to find her amidst every crowd,

created anxiety and thus he secluded himself

from society.

Trying to find her knowing it will

hurt him, all he wanted was to just see her

from distance at least, cause all he wanted

was to know if she is doing well

cause she was the princess he once fought battles along side with.

She was a majestic being

she was humble at one point in life

and all that was etched onto his soul

that what ever was the betrayal he encountered

from her was perceived as  an act of necessity.

There he stood dancing with the darkness

as all these thoughts haunting inside and outside

was that smile and careless outlook

as if nothing really happened to the bruised soul

Cheers to life

Airboy89

 

 

White lies about healing…

“It will heal just give it time” – everyone who knew me said that, somewhere deep down inside me even though i knew it was a lie i was happy that somehow i shall be back up on my feet figuratively speaking. Its been a long time now and i realised i was right all along.

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Now that’s the dilemma should i rejoice for i was right or be sad that the wounds of past are still hurting me. Well neither, I think its time to accept. Accept the fact that nothing really heals; we only get accustomed to the change.

Healing is just a white lie to soothe the raging mind and heart. But when we think at a logically level is it not a lie. There is no absolute in this matter. Healing is a process giving to slowly adjusting with facts. It’s not like it’s gone; it will be there within us only thing is we will be strong enough to hide it.

When i thought i would be healed of my scars from the past, i was really happy until the point i realised it wont if the person stands right front of me all would fall back. I do not want to be healed or tortured i would want it to be channelled into something productive. giving an edge towards attaining success or happiness. Let every sleepless night be turned into brain storming sessions as to how to plan and execute the steps towards attaining growth. Let every insult lead to a motivation to prove them wrong. Let every cheating bastards be a lesson to differentiate people next time. Let all the anger fuel up the bulldozer towards success.

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It’s a twisted thought for some; but think out of the box; let your pain be your motivation.

I personally know its hard but am trying; cause failure is not when we fail; it’s when we lay low instead of getting back up. It’s ok to fall but it’s not ok to get back up take your time but make sure to get back up and make sure you are back on battle mode.

PAin is good; it gives you time to think and what is right and wrong. But yes do not let pain make you do things which are immoral and illegal. CAuse we already have government and religion for that..hahaha.

So next time someone says it will all heal tell them to keep it for themselves. Cause nothing heals we only get adjusted.

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Cheers to life

Airboy89