Silent nights…

Silence speaks a thousand words

A feeble voice inside the head always speaking

louder than the world;

yet no one else can hear it out-loud.

It speaks all the time without a stop

for the mind is always restless

no matter the calmness on the face.

Amidst all the chaos , a silent night comes once

a while where there is only silence.

The kind of silence which death is also

scared off; the kind of silence which

halts time and space.

The bliss which gives is both

scary as well as amazing,

for its in darkness in a world filled with “Light”

the craving for that lost hug, that lost kiss

also cannot match it.

For the silence awakens the sleeping soul

and shows the world as it is

The butterflies in the stomach

dies and shows their true face.

The purpose of life seems

clear, the words no longer

seem to intrigue the mind and heart

rather it craves for reality.

Anger does not burn you, rather it

fuels you to be better.

Sadness cannot hurt as it would

it only motivates to push oneself to

the limit.

You see the bright side of darkness which once

scared you.

That is the power of silent nights.

It awakens the one’s dead from the within.


Cheers to life






Short post 15

Redemption and suffering both is within us. It’s just upon the heart to let the mind chose


The truth sets you free, when the one who needs the truth accepts the truth

otherwise it shall only be a taunting little memory etched in the head.


There is no shame in accepting that one is flawed,

shame is when you know you are flawed and yet hide it behind

words and illusion.



only you can live your life not anyone else

so why stress about what others think for

you shall and will be your own guardian



Beyond the boundaries of societies beyond the realm of limitations

lies humanity sober, clean and guarded by conscience which is

pure as the smile of infant.



Amidst the darkness lies a calmness, a solitude , a calling

which only the broken can see and bear

for not all heroes are born to save the world wearing cape

some are heroes save the world just by taming the devil

inside of them, in the darkness


When u spot the smile in the ally of memories

when you see the tears in the corners of the mind palace

just remember that both happiness and sadness are illusions


One does not a god for saving, what one needs is confidence upon oneself

for victory favors the brave, and the brave have trust upon themselves

and not any invisible entity


Everyday can be a battle when you come back from a war,

for war exposes you to certain treacherous phases

that it can create havoc in the mind and can errupt

anytime, not all wars are fought between countries

few war are fought between reality and illusion




Staring into the Abyss

There was a part of life

where everything seemed

as a happy fairy tale

there was a pinch of sadness,

anger, love, care and everything


But along the way

the story got a twist,

the whole world

turned upside down

the once presumed miracle

turned out to be a curse.

The smile from the heart

turned into a masquerade

of happiness.

The cry for all of it to end

was in vain

for life had its own plan

not for the betterment

but for the torment.

Memories were not cherished

rather served as a needle

to poke the wound.

Positivism of life

suddenly turned into

an never ending black hole.

The paper also couldn’t

absorb the  enormous

load of pain.

Loads of paper, bottles of ink,

glasses of alcohol, river of tears

nothing could take away

what was snatched away

from life…

All that was left

was just stare into the

abyss awaiting for all of it

to end scared to jump

worried to stand

just stare into the abyss……


Cheers to life


Silence of the words

Words are a beautiful way to express ones thoughts in general, yet it applies to those which can be expressed or rather valued. What bout those which cannot be expressed which is so valuable that no word in the vocabulary will pin pointedly express the exact emotion. For example say a mothers love for her child now we may say its deeper than the ocean vaster than the universe, brighter than the stars so on so forth but can a mothers love be merely expressed in those metaphors well surely no.


The phrase action speaks louder than words is an compilation of same feeling. It can be for any thing for happiness sadness anger guilt etc. so its okay to go numb or dumb out of words once a while that time or that instance of silence of the words that moment when the brain just switches itself off and says “am out , bro”can sometimes be really embarrassing.

But forget the embarrassment  think bout that moment which made you go berserk and silent, well it may be anything a happy moment or a sad. But a control mechanism kicks in at that moment where u blabber things which may not even make sense.

Feel those instances embrace it and just smile and say fuck it,its worth it.

There are certain instance’s where a person makes you feel that silence of words, i mean waav seriously it is ah literally scary same time exciting(Taking into acct this is a happy instance). One may be good with words good with thoughts good with alnost everything and then there comes a person who just makes you look dumb and just makes you say ‘ fuck this shit, i don mind becoming dumb ‘.

Something i say everyone must experience where your IQ your smartness your gestures your bloody you itself just go blank and literally numb.

Now i take it funnily,but when it happened it was so not so funny..hahahaha

Happiness is sometimes over rated..:P


Cheers to life


Solitude in the crowd.



The crowd always is a good place to get your thoughts to run wild cause every individual you see can ignite an thought to think on and provoke your inner demon /angel/philosopher.

Solitude necessarily does not mean to be seluded from the crowd, we can be in solitude even in the crowd. Physically we can be at a place but mentally we can go around the world so being in a lonely place is not needed. The nonsense chatter of people which does not interest you can be avoided or can be taken as a case study itself, life is all about learning from everyone everywhere.

The best part of being in solitude in a crowd is you can laugh at the dilemma’s and see the ironies face the hostility learn people management even multi tasking…

What does solitude give that socializing does not give; well its entirely dependent on ones perception. Why love solitude when one can have so much “fun” with people around. Well the answer is people, yes people themselves push other beings to like solitude for every individual will have a in his own thought process and from a young age we are thought to adjust t o the society and live; well most of the people do it but then there are the rebels who do not go by the rules. Now in these rebels exist the solitude lovers.

So what does a solitude loving person do..??? Plot world domination, plan on how to rob a bank, plan on creating a weapon of mass destruction.. fuck no.. he just sits there reading a book writing a book or thinking on a topic and self debating on it.

Why does one do all this in solitude, well if i say lets talk bout the molecular structure of diamond am sure most of crowd would go WTF..!!! ok lets go for a simpler example suppose i say lets talk bout the universe lets have a deep thought provoking conversation most of the people would go bonkers and laugh so the solitude to think what ever one wants.

Solitude and loneliness are two different things confused to be same. Loneliness is something one would hate while solitude is something one loves. Solitude is similar to creating a parallel universe inside ones head to think to debate to invent.

Attaining solitude while in a crowd can be a uphill task reason being the people around you might be talking and may demand a response from you while you are deep in thought. But those who can master the art honestly you can reach new heights cause personally i tried to do it but was disturbed amidst thinking on something.

its okay to enjoy one’s own company cause it makes you aware of who one truly is, it helps you think on topic which others may find boring, it helps you increase your thirst for knowledge. Its a golden key to enlighten


cheers to life



Measure of emotions…

How bad does it hurt….??? How happy are you ..?? how does it feel…??

These are a few question for which one cannot accurately answer , the measure of emotions is something which has always been an inaccurate description. The world has outgrown so fast and so far that we have forgotten that emotions too are a part of being human. We can measure the speed of light the depth of the ocean but can we measure pain happiness etc.

We can only give similarities to those for example when we are extremely happy and some asks how does it feel all we can say we feel like king of the world or top of the world. But is that a unit ,nope its just comparative analysis.

Why i ask this question is a friend asked me out of the blue saying How does it feel having lost everything that you worked for in just a matter of days..? the question dumbstruck me for a while cause i could not say an accurate answer cause. How do i tell the amount of depression anger regret etc which is boiling inside me. Instead i had to rely on the oldest trick in the book i.e smile and say it gave me an opportunity to do better.

It’s really stupid concept that we have to smile even when we really wanna beat the crap out of someone or just say i am not ok. But it helps in a way mainly cause not all we meet are at the same intellectual or emotional level in life. So solution is just smile.

We laugh at someone who is going thru hell saying he is a weakling or that he is a downer. But never do we think saying what if we had faced the same situation and lost at same level. One mans trash is another man’s treasure same way is for feelings and human nature. What is irrelevant to me may be the world to someone else.

A few years back when i was top of my game everyone wanted to be with me. Once i fell down then i realised that not all those who smile along with you during your good times stay with you during bad times. People said i need to change and stop being who i am right now, i even tried but it was worse than my depression. Then I realised that why change just cause people asked you to. They are not in the same level of EQ.

Pain is inevitable but suffering is optional said Buddha; its seems easy to say something but so difficult to action it .

MAy be that’s what differentiates people the way we are…

Cheers to life